It’s been awhile…

Dear Moon,

Well, I was just realizing that it has been awhile since I posted anything here. That is possibly a good thing I guess since much of what I’ve written you before has been kind of a downer. Although the last thing I wrote about the Drama Mama, has all blown over. I even made up with my brother!

The past several months have gone pretty ok. Still struggling to get out of the big black whole of unemployment, debt, and there just never being enough money to actual doing anything other than just the bare minimum. For Christmas it was awesome that Patrick had two weeks off from work and we were all home together as a family, but it really sort of sucked that we didn’t have any money to actually go do anything. Hehe We did get some AMC cards as gifts and were able to go to the movies, and my Mom had sent us a check that paid for us to see the Hobbit! So we did get to go see some movies we wouldn’t have been able to see any other way.

I guess it comes down to what Patrick says. “I work too hard to be THIS poor!” I know we have a lot, but we also have A LOT of bills for what we got. I am so thankful for all that we have, and I know we aren’t the only ones struggling. If I could just get a job it would help I think, but the peace of mind of being available for the kids is priceless to Patrick and I. I’m not sure about the kids, but I think there is a point of security that comes with knowing someone is available if they need it. Maybe it’s so important to us since the kids grew up with so much uncertinty, which I guess comes with the territory of being a Military child. I don’t know.

I would like to get a job so I could get out of this house and the loanliness that comes with being alone much of the day. I just don’t have any references to anything that I had worked at before, I do not have any schooling really, and I don’t want to work fast food. Hehe Seems to be that most all companies want you to at least have an associates degree, but I don’t have that. Maybe I could try doing school again. Still, I’m not sure what I would take and what degree I would get. Probably something in computers, or maybe child care. Until then, I still would like to get a routine down, get organized, and just be happy with being an awesome homemaker, but seems to be that I’m just not quite there YET! ๐Ÿ˜€ I’ll keep working on it though.