I just got done emailing Patrick about this journal. I’m FINALLY going to go off to bed, but I just wanted to say that I love my sweet husband VERY much and hope that he will always love me. He is my best friend and I don’t know what mylife would have been like without him, but I know for a fact that I wouldn’t want to have found out. I knew from the first time I met him that we would be together. Looking back at the past, almost 14 years, I can honestly say I am shocked sometimes that we still are. We sure do seem to work stuff out. LOL! I think Patrick and I are the best proof of the miracle of Prayer. God lives and loves us. Even though I screw up sooo bad so much, I know he loves me and takes care of me. I just don’t understand why. That is maybe part of my sadness. I need to figure out why God and Patrick love me so much. hehe 😛 Hmm I definetly need a self confidence check.

Ok this is it for this AM, I will write more later.